February Blog Hop

Fenchesca has come up with a great idea for a Small Miracles Blog Hop.  What things have brought me hope.

If you would hae asked me this a couple of month ago I would have said nothing.  I was extremely hopeless.

Now there are a couple of things.

Two of my dear blog friends have just gotten BFP's and are entering a exciting but terrifying time of pregnancy after loss, this gives me hope that I will be there soon.

Our good friends had their triplets in December at 29 weeks and the last one came home last week, this gives me hope that good things do happen from time to time.

Lastly, we will be doing IVF again soon (probably in early April) and we have a lot of people rooting for us and praying for a better outcome for us this time. And while this terrifies me it also gives me hope that we really will get our BFP and get to bring home a baby this time.  & not in an urn with only our short time and way too few memories of our beautiful daughter.

(If you know me IRL please dont say anything about the IVF, we are not planning on telling anyone if it works until 24 weeks)

Um so I'm kind of...

freaking out lol.

We were putting off IVF 2.0 until June because of my new job, but decided to move it up to April.  Like late April.  Well I remove my Nuva.Ring tomorrow, which means that my march cycle - you know the cycle where you go in to CD3 B/W and U/S and start your suppression for 2-3 weeks then have another cycle then start stims yeah that would be expected prolly early march which would mean that IVF 2.0 may be happening as early as late march, EARLY APRIL.  I'm freaking out.  I really dont know why lol

And yes I am using the Nuva.Ring and have been for almost a year - like why use BC hello infertile - it's really just for cycle regulation cause I am so irregular I have been known to go 6 months with no AF.  Thanks PCOS you suck ass.

So anyway, I may not be posting a lot during ivf just cause with our fet's that we got bfp's then miscarried it was hard to deal with and while I am anon her, just on the off chance someone I know finds me (except those that already know!!)

Love you guys.