beta for fet 2.1

So I POAS'ed on Monday and got a BFN, so I called RE to move up beta from Monday to Friday. I did this since Chris was leaving today to go out of town and I didn't want to have to give myself PIO shots if I did not have to.

Wednesday morning I decided to POAS again and was going to stop my meds if it was still a BFN, uh yeah BFP. I even posted the pic on twitter cause I wanted someone else to tell me they say that + sign and I wasn't imagining it. Evidently everyone else saw it as well.

So beta was today and came back at 67. That's quite a bit lower than any of my first betas have been before, but Chris did remind me I went in 4-5 days sooner that I normally do for the beta.

I'm 15dpo so that # is in the normal range, and I will go back on Monday for Beta #2.

I just really hope this is the one. THE ONE! Cause my heart hurts and is heavy. I am not sure how many more times it can be broken before I shatter all the way.

Please pray to whatever God you believe in that this is the one for us.

Much love and baby dust to all still trying, Al

bedrest is not my friend

Well we had FET 2.1 yesterday, 7/12, at 11 am. I'm on bedrest thru thursday night. well technically I'm supposed to be on bedrest for 72 hours which would put it thru Friday at 11, but I'll be going to work on Friday. I'm about to lose my ever lovin mind lol. I can only handle so much laying on my side or back staring at the tv. i haven't even really wanted to get on the computer.

I have hope, but also fear that I'm just going to get another BFP and miscarry again. it gets harder each time for me. and then there's fear that we have one that sticks around past the 1st tri and get to the cerclage point. what if that doesn't work. but I'm trying not to think about it too much. just taking it one day at a time.

I said on twitter the other day that sometimes I wonder if my pregnancy with Cady was our only chance that got fucked up by my incompetent stupid cervix. I don't feel that way a lot but it does cross my mind from time to time. i really hope that's not what's meant to be

mama loves u cady please watch out for the potential inside me right now and send us a baby brother or sister for u and get them here safely.

hope everyone is well.

al

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FET 2.1

FET us going to be 7/12. I'm starting to get a bit nervous folks


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