Wednesday, July 13, 2011

bedrest is not my friend

Well we had FET 2.1 yesterday, 7/12, at 11 am. I'm on bedrest thru thursday night. well technically I'm supposed to be on bedrest for 72 hours which would put it thru Friday at 11, but I'll be going to work on Friday. I'm about to lose my ever lovin mind lol. I can only handle so much laying on my side or back staring at the tv. i haven't even really wanted to get on the computer.

I have hope, but also fear that I'm just going to get another BFP and miscarry again. it gets harder each time for me. and then there's fear that we have one that sticks around past the 1st tri and get to the cerclage point. what if that doesn't work. but I'm trying not to think about it too much. just taking it one day at a time.

I said on twitter the other day that sometimes I wonder if my pregnancy with Cady was our only chance that got fucked up by my incompetent stupid cervix. I don't feel that way a lot but it does cross my mind from time to time. i really hope that's not what's meant to be

mama loves u cady please watch out for the potential inside me right now and send us a baby brother or sister for u and get them here safely.

hope everyone is well.

al

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10 comments:

Unknown said...

I totally agree, bedrest is the devil! Hang in there! And good luck - I hope this is it for both of us :)

Damita said...

*hugs* I hope it is good news and that they are fine *hugs*

Dana said...

I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you!

Ms. J said...

Been thinking about you. I am not sure what to say or offer having never gone through IVF, etc. But loss is something I know well.

HUGS. And have fun with the remote control til you are paroled from bedrest.

Jen said...

Always sending you love and prayers

((hugs))

Jaime said...

Ooh, my everything is crossed for you! Sorry you are bored to tears... I hope the day passes quickly for you and look forward to following your journey with you.

x <3 o

S said...

Bed rest is awful. I'm glad our clinic didn't require it after our IVF cycle.

Fingers crossed for you. I hope your FET works!

Patty said...

It is scary but wishing you a healthy baby! There is so much sacrifice to go through infertility and then to keep HOPING...

Unknown said...

I remember that !!! ARGHHH its hard todo !

Unknown said...

That is sooo hard to do I know