Job Update & Cady's Bday

It's been a while.  Hope everyone is doing well.

I have been working at a contract HR job for a month now, I really like them there but it's 33 miles from the house and in really, really bad traffic.  I got a job offer at a place that I interviewed at before I was offered the contract position.  It is less than 15 miles from home but less money.  When I told the contract job that I would be leaving, they offered the job to me permanently with a raise.  I called my recruiter to tell her they offered me a full-time position to see if the other one would counter offer (it never hurts to ask right!) and she said that she would check and get back with me.  She called me Tuesday morning - they said YES and offered me 2,000 more a year than my initial offer!!!

We had decided that I would take the closer one just because because it was so much closer, a bigger company and awesome benefits (2 different medical plans - 1 pays up to 80% of IVF and the other pays 100% of a max of 3 IVFs - freaking-a dude!).  It's still less money, but its only 2k less than the job I lost in August so that's awesome!  I start Monday - I'm excited and I hope it will be a great opportunity and the people seemed nice.

It was a hard decision for me because the people at the contract job are really great and nice, but the drive...it takes me 1 hour to work and 1.5 hrs to get home and that SUCKED ASS folks.

I need to post about Cady's birthday, but I have to download the photos and.well...I'm lazy lol.

The day was a lot better than I thought it would be and I handled it a lot better than I thought I would.  We had a snafu with the balloons but I will tell you all about that when I actually post pictures.

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Dear Universe,

I want my daughter here with me.

This new me - this new reality of my life sucks ass.

I should not be able to sit here and do my homework with no interruptions, I should have about an 8 month old.

You keep screwing me over.

Thanks for that.

That is all.

Luv allison

Remembering

Please stop by and give lots of love and hugs to Lis @ Built-in Birth Control.

She is remembering her girls tomorrow on the anniversary of the day they were born too soon.

Much love to Ayla Joy, Juliet Grace and their Mommy & Daddy.

Al

Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day

Did you light your candle for all the lost babies?  I did for Cadynce and all of your angels as well.

I hope you had a good day of remembrance.

Faces of Loss Faces of Hope

Faces of Loss Faces of Hope

This is a great organization dedicating to helping women through loss.  They are trying to get 2000 faces of loss by 10/15 and still need almost 1000!

Lets help them get their goal.

Insomnia

I feel the insomnia creeping back into my life.  It has just been the last 2-3 months that I have been able to sleep at night, but this week has not be condusive to sleep.  I know that it is because Cadynce's 1st birthday is this Sunday and everytime I close my eyes I am back in that hospital holding my beautiful daughter who was too little to survive.

It has to get better right?  I don't do well on too little sleep.

We are planning on doing a balloon release on Sunday and lighting her candle.  I wanted to plan something bigger but since our familes arent here in Houston there wouldnt really be anyone to come so it will just be Chris and I.  Which is fitting since we were out of state when we lost her and it was just he and I then too.

It helps to know how much he loves me.  It helps more than I will EVER be able to express to him so he will probably never know the full extent.  I love him a little bit more everyday (Well except the days that he pisses me off - I still love him on those days, just not as much)