I feel the insomnia creeping back into my life. It has just been the last 2-3 months that I have been able to sleep at night, but this week has not be condusive to sleep. I know that it is because Cadynce's 1st birthday is this Sunday and everytime I close my eyes I am back in that hospital holding my beautiful daughter who was too little to survive.
It has to get better right? I don't do well on too little sleep.
We are planning on doing a balloon release on Sunday and lighting her candle. I wanted to plan something bigger but since our familes arent here in Houston there wouldnt really be anyone to come so it will just be Chris and I. Which is fitting since we were out of state when we lost her and it was just he and I then too.
It helps to know how much he loves me. It helps more than I will EVER be able to express to him so he will probably never know the full extent. I love him a little bit more everyday (Well except the days that he pisses me off - I still love him on those days, just not as much)
13 comments:
I will be thinking about you, Cadynce and Chris on Sunday. I'm sure the balloon release will be beautiful.
I hope you are able to start sleeping better soon.
What a great way to remember her! I know Sunday will be hard for you guys. I will be thinking of you.
Just sending you hugs and love and acknowledgement on this painful anniversary. I can't even begin to imagine . . . but you are all in my prayers.
the balloon release is a beautiful idea.
Thinking of you as you approach your sweet angel's birthday. We've now passed 2 since we lost our babies and I can say that the second was easier than the first, albeit still sad and painful. But it's nice to have a day to devote to their memories. I think your plans for the day sound perfect.
P.S. - Thank you for your Anne Frank quote on the right. It's exactly what I needed to hear right now.
i'll be thinking of you on sunday. i think your plans sound beautiful. hugs.
Sending so much love... So much. And remembering with you.
thinking of you today, my friend. thinking of you and missing Cady with you. there is a candle lit for her and it will burn all day.
hugs and love
xoxo
lis
Thinking of you and your beautiful Cadynce Alice today xo
Here's to remembering your precious daughter Cadynce with you and your husband. I hope her one year anniversary today is gentle on the both of you. Love and blessings, Allison.
Thinking of you.
THinking of you and sending lots of love to you <3
Hugs from a fellow LFCA memeber
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