Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Days

There are days when I just want to go to sleep and not wake up.  For some reason today was one of those days and yet it is 11 pm and I am still awake.  I do not even know what triggers these days.

And no I am not nor will I ever consider hurting myself, just have days...

Just had to say that to put it out there.......

10 comments:

Eb said...

So sorry your feeling crap. If it helps, know your bloggie friends are thinking of you, sending you peace.

Marianne said...

I am so sorry Ali. I will be thinking about you today.

Ms. J said...

Have you thought about talking with a counselor? Even if you have before, there's nothing wrong with "checking in" much like having your car serviced regularly by a mechanic.

This time of year is HARD, even if we aren't actively thinking about it. Our subconscious [sp?] self still knows it, and it plays itself out.

I, too, am having trouble sleeping and am even more impatient that usual. And I know why, and it hurts.

Marie W said...

Sending hugs and love your way Allison! I think we have all been there some time or another.....

Molly King said...

I know exactly what you mean! I can't wait until January!

LetterstoClaire said...

I'm new to the baby loss community and it means a lot to me to know that 1) I'm not alone and 2) It's okay to have BAD days. I know people expect me to but they expect it to occur in private. I broke down at work today and know in my heart there was nothing I could do about it- I found relief when I got home by reading the blogs I follow and remembering that we all go through it and its completely normal.

Holly said...

Sorry it is one of those...ugh...

Debby@Just Breathe said...

I am so sorry for your pain and heartache. ((HUGS))

Jessica said...

Sorry you are having a tough day, first time visiting. I lost my daughter on October 11, one day after your little Cadynce. So sorry for your loss.

Teresa @ Grammy Girlfriend said...

sORRY YOU ARE FEELING LOW.,.....PRAYING