why is it when I have a string of good days it inevitably turns into guilt for having those good days. Stupid unruly emotions.
The last couple of weeks have been really good, I think it's because i really have hope again. But something made me think of cady and I felt guilty. I mean it's not like i forgot - cause that'll happen when hell freezes over and I know it's normal to feel like that but really :(
Anyway had to get that out of my head. The guilt feeling is pretty much gone but I was obsessing about it. Cause evidently that's what I go now
Oh and pardon any typos typed this on my iPhone
Lotsa love and good nite
Oh and I'm sad guess it's been so long since I posted no ones commented
:)
6 comments:
I sometimes feel guilty for having good days too. Just remember, you deserve to have good days sometimes.
I've starting have moments when I'm not thinking only about Jacob and it always surprises me when I realize it. I don't like it, but I know it is necessary to move forward. We are living our lives for our babies now too, so we have to live them well.
I'm still here!!!
I still have those moments of guilt after happiness... I just try to remember that my kids want me to be happy. Even though it's hard.
I'm still reading, too. I think most about m/c's from my past when I am on my treadmill, around minute 15-20. Something always takes my thoughts there, and the tears come, fat, hot, and heavy.
It's okay to not think so much about it some days, and lots on others.
I am always here!! I have to admit I have been a slacker commenter lately.
And guilt... ugh... almost every happy thought I have is followed by a guilt thought. Not fair.
xo
I am still reading.
I am glad you are feeling good, and I'm sorry to hear that makes you feel guilty. I know you will never forget Cady, but life must go on.
Post a Comment