I am not sure..

I am not sure what to do with this space. I have so little free time to blog these days, and the feelings are so completely different now that Landon is here and thriving. I have a 10 month old son - how the heck did that happen.

This will always be where I worked through my grief in losing Cadynce and having miscarriage after miscarriage after miscarriage. While I will never be how I was before infertility and loss I am also not the same as I was when I started this blog.

I have learned so much from everyone who has reached out to me, and I hope I have offered advice and made others feel that they are not alone in the horrible journey.

I guess this post is to say that I think I am going to step away from this blog unless I get the urge to write or need to deal with some other grief.

I have been tossing around in my mind creating a blog that is not semi-anonymous, but would be private so I can share pictures of L and C and myself. If I do decide to go ahead and do that I will post here so that if you want you can e-mail me for the link. Also, if anyone wants to reach out for any reason you can always e-mail me, I will keep that e-mail active for now.

I will leave I am a Mommy open so that anyone who is new to the grief of losing a child can maybe see that someday there really is light at the end of the tunnel.

I want to thank each and everyone of you that have reached out to me at any point in my journey and helped me. You will never know how much even just saying hi you are not alone has meant to me. I love you - although, as we all do I wish that the circumstances of our acquaintance were different.

Allison