Just Blah

Hey there everyone. I haven't been around this week just because I haven't really had anything to say. I've been reading and commenting some, but I feel like I am out of words right now. I reached a point last week where it just seemed like I was saying the same thing all the time. I'm sad, I'm mad blah blah so I was bored with myself so I didn't want to make you suffer from my boredom as well. I am doing okay just so you know.


Well let's have a rundown of the last couple of weeks since I haven't really posted much.
3/12- Hysteroscopy, went well found some scar tissue, which the Dr. H removed. YAY Dr. H we love him :-). I have been on estrace for 2 weeks and started provera on Tuesday to bring on a cycle. Speaking of which does anyone know how long it typically takes to start once you take your last provera pill? He has me taking it for 5 days so I take my last one tomorrow. I admit it -- Dudes I'm impatient, I just want to get this FET show on the road. Once I start I'll do BCP's for 2 weeks I guess to suppress, suppose I'll actually know how long once I start and go in for baseline BW and US. Then FET -- Like I said IMPATIENT!!! I just want to have it done and know one way or the other. This Limbo shit sucks just FYI lol

Then last Saturday, I met and had lunch with a fellow BLM (E @ Cotton Socks). We met at Panera around 11:30. It was a sucktastic day rainy and icky, my drive there sucked! So anyway, we ate and were just sitting there talking. It rained pretty much the whole time we were there and just kept getting colder (we know this because we were close to a door and every time it opened I swear it was colder than the time before). It was really nice to be able to sit and talk about her Gabe and my Cady with someone who really understands where you are coming from and doesn't just try to say things that they THINK will make you feel better. So we were just talking and all and I was like what time is it -- IT WAS 3:55 -- we had been sitting there talking for 4 HOURS. For some folks I guess that might not be a shock, but for me it is since I can be pretty shy sometimes. It was nice getting to know her and hope we keep in touch and are able to get together again sometime.

One thing that we talked about was how our sense of humors sometimes offends people. My story was that when my boss brought her daughter up to the office for the first time it was during some peoples lunch times. Well my co-worker walked in from lunch and I said -- You missed the baby -- and she said -- What baby? -- and I said -- Well Not my baby -- She just looked at me like OMG how the hell do I respond to what this crazy person just said -- I just laughed because it was kind of like I can't believe I just said that myself. So I am a little darker than I used to be deal with it people deal with it -- my baby died I think I have a right to be dark Allison from time to time.

So the boss lady is actually only working 1/2 days a couple of days a week in the office, due to a new client and having a very short time frame to implement them. Which I think will be better for me, so I can adjust more easily. Monday I just ignored everyone and stayed in my cubicle. Tuesday I went into her office to talk to her about some things and the baby was in there and I actually did ok. I just kind of ignored her. I think once she gets past the newborn stage it will be easier on me. Thanks so much for your thoughts and prayers this week. It hasn't been as bad as I was afraid it would.