Hey everyone, I wanted to thank you for your wonderful comments on my last post. I wasn't sure I was going to talk about it on here, but decided what the hell.
I had an appt with the RE today for CD3 bloodwork and basline US. We are hoping to do an FET in January. So I am just waiting on the nurse to call me back with the results from the BW and we shall go from there. She said that we may be able to do it on 1/1. Wouldnt that be a hell of a way to start 2010?
In no way does this lessen the grief that I feel for Cadynce, I am still learning everyday how to live with out my hopes and dreams for what could have been. I talked to C about it last night and I came to the realization that no matter how long I wait I will never get over what we lost completely. I love and miss my baby girl more than any words can say, but once I finally made the decision once and for all (I have to admit there was A LOT of going back and forth going on in my head) I felt a sense of peace about it. So I am hoping that means this is the right decision for us. Guess I will let you know more later.
Much Love and Many Hugs,
Al
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Wishing you the best of luck with your FET!
Ali that's wonderful news, I will be keeping my fingers crossed that all goes well and that your FET is successful. Many hugs...
Hoping with you that the FET goes well! Believe me - we've gotten pregnant from it twice now, so it definitely can work! Wow, they must be putting you right on Lupron, instead of BCP's! Thinking of you!
Ali - I admire your strength and courage. You have given me hope that I can go on from here. I still struggle with the decision of what to do next and when. It's a hard decision to make. Congratulations on taking that step! Hugs, Prayers and Thoughts of you always!
I'll be sending lots of good thoughts your way! I know that decisions like these are so hard but I am glad you are feeling some peace. That is all we can hope for, right?! Best of Luck to you!!
After we lost our twins and went back to the RE, she asked us if we were "ready" to try again. I told her that honestly, if we waited 5 more years, I would never be over my grief. That it would always be a part of me. Trying for a sibling doesnt mean you've forgotten Cadynce or are moving on- not at all. It means that your love for her has inspired in you a love to have even more children.
You never let go of your baby...even when trying to have another one or when they place your rainbow baby in your arms...
Good luck and I hope 2010 starts out in a wonderful way for you :)
Good luck! Here to give support all the way!
Traveling down the TTC road after a loss can be an emotional road. We are on that road now and as long as you feel at peace, you will get through it. *hugs* Praying for you and that goes well with the FET!!
Thanks for all the well wishes and luck (can never have too much of that)
AKD-yes we are skipping BCP and going straight to patches/pills and Lupron, I think I have to take my Lupron shot next week. Whats the usual protocal for Lupron i've never been on it before, but it seems like i have to todo one shot of it when they tell me to?
Jennifer-thanks thats soo sweet of you to say, it just feels right for me right now. :-) i hope you find peace with whatever decision you make!
Michele-that is exactly what I told my hubby we could wait years and I will never be completely over the grief. FYI your babies are beautiful, but I am sure you already knew that lol
Again thanks for all your well wishes you guys are AWESOME!
Congrats on your decision. I have an appointment tomorrow to speak with someone about egg donation and embyro donation. I have the screwed up genetic makeup so we are taking me out of the equation. Bit of a relief really but I'm scared because I don't know much about ART. I've been pregnant 9 times naturally and I can't get one to stick around...this decision, for me, like you, doesn't make me miss my boys any less but I've got to come to terms with the fact that they are coming back. I can't do anything to get them back. It's either move forward or stay stuck. Our babies wouldn't want us to stay stuck. Big hugs to you.
I agree there may never feel like a right time. I'm glad you made a decision about it and are going to go with it. I'm wishing you the best.
Thank you for stopping by my blog and wishing me well. I am so sorry for your loss. Every baby is uniquely loved and irreplaceable. What I already know is that our hearts can expand immeasureably (sp) to accomodate love for another child, never for a moment negating the love for the other.
Much luck to you with FET.
I echo everyone elses sentiments. I knew right away I wanted to try again as soon as it was healthy too. I knew nothing I did would ever bring Ella back, nor would I ever feel "over" her death. I did think that ttc again would give me hope and get us closer to possibly bringing home a living baby.
Of course, all of us lbms get this. I've had to explain to a few people in my real life that this doesn't mean I'm cured or over it. I'm still yearning for my first born.
Sending you good vibes for a successful FET.
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