Well....I don't remember being in this much pain when we lost Cadynce. I seriously feel like I am dying. I know it's because I was in the hospital last time and they gave me Stadol, and then percocet, but Ouch, Ouch. it hurts so bad that Vicodin wasn't helping at all last nite.
It helped some today, but now it's worn off and I dont want to take anymore when i will be driving in less than an hour.
I started spotting over the weekend, which became full fledged bleeding Monday afternoon, at my appt the sac was still there and still empty but with the bleeding I knew it wouldnt be long. The RE prescribed Cytotec, but it wasnt ready early enough for me to get it Monday nite. Well turns out I didnt need it. I took a hot shower to help with the cramping when I got home Monday and passed everything. I totally freaked out (I never saw any other the placenta, etc with Cady) so Chris had to pick it up from the floor (we have a seperate shower that has a thing over the drain).
Anyway, going back next Monday to be sure that everything passed. They want to do a RPL panel so I went to have my blood drawn for that -- -- 13 vials of blood later....they better be able to tell me if somethings wrong. I was like geeezzzzzz..........
RE said that we can try with the 2 remaining embryos we have, so just have to wait til next cycle, and do another hysteroscopy. not sure yet when, havent decided.
Thanks for your support. :-)
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Oh, Allison. I'm so sorry for all of the pain you're experiencing. I wish I could bring you some chocolate cake and sit and cry with you. Thinking of you and sending love and support.
I'm sorry, honey. I can't imagine what I would do if that happened to me, especially in the shower. ((Hugs))
Oh honey... I'm so sorry. Sending loving thoughts.
So sorry. I admire your strength! I'll be thinking of you!
I am so sorry. I am so sad for you, this isn't the way things are supposed to be. I wish there was more I could do, other then offer my words of sadness. You are in my thoughts. Lots of *hugs* Take some time for you, pamper yourself, treat yourself to something special. You deserve it.
I'm so sorry for your pain and your loss. I had a D&C with my blighted ovum which was bad enough emotionally, but at least it was easier physically. And I didn't have to see anything pass. I'm thinking of you.
Thinking of you ((hugs))
I am so so sorry. I'm thinking of you and sending you my support. (((HUGS))) Take care of yourself.
Oh honey. I am so sorry. I will not tell you the "expected words of comfort" because I know you don't want to hear. Just know that I am praying and sending positive vibes your way!
I'm so very sorry. I hate this.
I'm so very sorry, Ali. You're in my thoughts - I hope that you're able to take care of yourself right now and give yourself all kinds of time. Hugs.
I'm so very sorry Ali. I'm just so sorry. xo
I'm sorry that you had to experience this. :(
((hug))
*hugs* Thinking of you and sending prayers your way.
You guys are all so sweet. This week has been a rough one with the miscarriage MOnday night, and then my boss had her baby Tuesday morning (the baby that was due 5 wks before Cadynce). So I am trying to be strong and power through it all. Knowing that I have all y'all out there caring and praying helps..So thanks to everyone
Not only are you dealing with all the emotional pain, but also the physical pain. I totally forgot how much a natural (& complete) miscarraige hurts - it's been so long :( You are in my thoughts daily and I'm hoping all these tests provide some answers!
I am so sorry for your pain - both physical and emotional. I've been thinking about you.
HUGS
Have been thinking about you, and hoping that your body is starting to feel a little better. Wishing you emotional strength....big hugs to you....
I'm so sorry for everything you are going through again. I hope the tests can bring you some answers. If not, at least some peace.
Sending some thoughts your way!
I just came across your blog. I am so sorry about the loss of your precious Cadynce and all you are going through now. Losing a child is something no parent should have to go through.
I just wanted to let you know that I also lost my little girl to IC at 25 weeks two years ago. I have found a great deal of support, info, and friendship at this site:
http://ic.hobh.org/forums/index.php
I wanted to share it in case you have not come across it.
Hugs to you.
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