Maybe if I say it enough it will be true. I had a pretty good weekend, no major bouts of crying, just a little tearing up. So yay me LOL.
Saturday should have been my first baby shower in Tyler with mine & C's families (we live in Houston and all our family is in East Texas and Dallas) so that was a bit hard, but I made it through without thinking about it too much!
Sometimes I wonder why I am handling this so well, but I know that I am handling this the only way I know how. Trying to accept the situation and move on with things. I am a pretty positive person, or at least I try to be. I have always tried to focus on the future and making things better - so thats what I have to do now.
I also have been feeling like I need a return to faith. I was raised in the church and though I haven't attended much since ohh i dont know I was 18, I have been feeling the pull to at least start reading my bible again, but I want a devotional bible. One that will help me with the reading, I have had a hard time sticking with it in the past. Does anyone have any suggestions on what kind and type to buy - I never realized how freaking many there were out there.
And wow I am a rambler -- so let me leave you with a picture of my furbabies.
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Your furbabies are adorable :)
Dr. Charles Stanley has a good devotional bible~ The faith principle bible and you could buy one at www.intouch.org (I think thats the address). My hubby and I are regular church attenders but I stopped going for a little while after Lily died b/c I was angry at God for allowing Lily to die. I did start going again b/c I love God and can't stay away for long...I hope you are able to get back into it and I'll be praying for you and your hubby ((hugs))
Yay for a less crying weekend, too..
I'm glad you had a better weekend - you deserve that. One thing I learned in the past two months is not to feel guilty for a good day(s) - there will be plenty of bad ones, so I should just be grateful for the good. I hope that more and more of yours are good - I think you've got a wonderful attitude!
I've become more dedicated in my faith again in the four months since losing Maddie, too - I think this can either bring us close to God, or push us away. I'm so glad you're finding peace that way.
Beautiful puppies!
It was hard for me on the day I was supposed to have my first baby shower. Happy you made it through the day okay.
Love the picture of your furbabies! : )
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