Do you ever feel guilty for having a good day and/or not being completely devastated all day?
I am having a good day at work today and in a good mood. Dont get me wrong I will never be "OVER" Cady's loss, but today feels like a day not to dwell. I feel like she's giving me peace today.
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NO, you should not feel guilty. Cady would want her momma to smile. *hugs*
Ali, there were days, especially in the beginning where I would realize that I hadn't cried all day, or in two days or later on in a week and the guilt would eat me alive. I dont feel guilty about it anymore, my son would never want his mama to spend her days mourning him and watching life pass me by. It's normal. And trust me, you'll have days that knock you right on your ass because the grief will be so strong. Cherish the few moments of peace you get here in the beginning of your journey, they will become more frequent the further in you go but the pain will never completely disappear. Sending you hugs
I used to, but then I talked to my grief counselor about it. She made me realize that there are going to be bad days for the rest of our lives, so I want to be grateful for the good ones. I tell myself that my little girl wouldn't want me to be sad, either.
Hugs!
I totally know that feeling. And I remember the shock (and guilt) when I first realize I hadn't cried that day. But today I truly believe that our kids smile when we smile too. They have seen us grieve (cry, yell, rage, you name it) way too often and rather have mommy giggle than sob.
Enjoy the day... and smile as often as you feel like!
Thanks so much for the comment on my blog. I'm so sorry for the recent loss of your daughter, and I'm glad you are managing to find some good days in the midst of all of the heartache.
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