Back to Cadynce's story. The nurse asked if we wanted to see/hold the baby and I knew there was no way I would ever forgive myself if I said no. so she brought her over to us (not really wrapped in a blanket) but put on a blanket, with it folded over her.
I held her and touched her perfect feet, toes, hands and fingers with their tiny fingernails. kissed her precious nose that looked just like her cousin Grace's and kissed her forehead. I told her I loved her and that mommy was sorry that she wasnt able to keep her safe until she was ready to be born, and that she would always be in my heart even if she never got to be here in life. then her daddy held her and kissed her and told her we loved her and would always miss her.
and i cant stop crying so I will have to finish at a later date.
6 comments:
I think you're very brave to be able to put so much of yourself out there so quickly after your loss.
You will cry an ocean of tears and will cry so hard that you'll forget to breath...and thats okay!
I look forward to hearing more of your and Cadynce's story...
I'm so, so sorry. You and C@dynce are in my thoughts and prayers.
I am so very sorry, for your loss and for your pain. You're in my thoughts.
I am so sorry for the loss of your baby. I know we don't know each other, but I am so sad to hear your heartbreaking story. I hope you'll be able to find comfort and peace in this difficult time and know that a stranger out there is saying a prayer for you.
I am very sorry for your loss. I will keep you in my prayers. Hugs
K
I think it's wonderful that you got time to hold Cadynce and love her, even if she was gone. I think it's so important that we take every opportunity with our children to burn their images into memory. It's amazing how such a tiny baby can be so perfectly formed, right down to her tiny fingernails. I'm sure in the months to come, you will relive holding her again and again and that instead of bringing you pain, it will bring an odd sense of comfort when you remember having her in your arms. Sending you hugs.
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