C & I met on the internet (I know the internet right...)in 2001, we dated for a year lived together for a year then got married on October 11, 2003. We started trying to begin our family in April 2004. We did 3 cycles with clomid at my gyn's office with no monitoring, but I did not ovulate either month.
I was diagnosed with PCOS at this time and given a referrel to an RE, but we didn't go. I think that part of the reason we didn't go was I was afraid they would tell me something was terribly wrong and I would never be able to get pregnant, plus also the cost. In late 2006 we realized that my husbands company paid for fertility treatments ($5000 in meds, which wow that was gone fast, 6 IUI's, and 50% up to $10K on IVF) so January 2007 we added me to his plan. We finally went to the RE and did a lot of testing (they thought I might have a clotting disorder but evidently i dont) an HSG (with everything normal). Then we did 3 IUI's with injectables. The first IUI got a positive Beta, but it wasnt rising properly and they were afraid it was ectopic, but thankfully it dropped so it was just a chemical pregnancy. The other IUI's were negative results. after the last IUI i had 2 large cysts so had to take a forced break, which turned into about 8 months because of work (yay work right lol).
We finally decided we were ready to go again in April of this year and went in to discuss using the rest of our IUI's but the nurse talked us into doing IVF (C freaked out at this point). we got 21 oocytes in retrevial, 12 fertilized, 10 made it to blast, we trasnferred 2 and 6 made it to freeze. Both embryos took and we were so excited to be having twins. at 8 weeks we got the bad news that we lost one twin (for who knows what reason probably something genetically wrong) but we had one baby still left so I was grateful for that. everything was good until about 10 weeks when i had some bleeding but the U/S showed the baby that was remaining was doing great and the bleeding was due to the loss of the twin. I am Rh- so i had to have a rhogam shot, but after this everything was going great.
We planned a trip for our 6th wedding anniversary/babymoon. On this trip i started have pains so we got to the hotel and checked in then i went to the restroom and saw blood and said we are going to the hospital now! all the while hoping it was just a UTI. we got to the ER and the babys heartbeat was a wonderful 158, but they wanted to do a pelvic exam. the er doctor examined me and stated that i was dilated, i assumed he meant just a little, but that he was calling in the on call OB. the on call ob came in and examined me and told us it didnt look good that I was fully dilated and the bag was bulging into the vaginal canal. I was admitted to the hospital (away from home and away from family just me and C). we were in shock-I couldn't even cry. the OB said he called a MFM to consult and there wasnt anything they could do to stop it I was going to have to deliver the baby. They gave me something to start the contractions (some pill i dont remember what). they gave me ambien to help me sleep (which it didnt) and stadol for the pain (which did help). at 6:00 am Saturday 10/10 i suddenly had the urge to push and delivered my precious baby (her sac didnt even break). we hadnt been able to find out what the baby was at our last ultrasound a week before, so we asked the nurse and she said it was a girl.
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I found your blog from a comment that you made on another blog and couldn't help but notice that your loss was so recent. I just wanted to stop by and tell you that I'm so sorry for your loss of Cadence. I remember the first days and weeks after losing my daughter, Lily, at 23 weeks and I know how surreal and badly things feel for you right now. I'm nearly 15 months out from losing Lily and sometimes it still feels like a terrible nightmare.
((hugs))
I met my hubby on the internet, too. Match.com :) Our first date was on October 10th,2005. Just a neat coincidence~
I'm so sorry for the loss of Cadynce. Grief is a complicated journey, full of ups and downs, progress and regression. Your grief is fairly new and I applaud you for reaching out in your pain. If there was any advice I could offer to help you in your journey, it would be to reach out to the women in our babylost community. There are way too many of us but we are a beautiful support system for each other because although no two mothers will experience the same loss, the deep pain is universally understood. If I may also point you towards a place of healing where you may find some support or other mothers who have experienced similar situations, please visit
http://www.glowinthewoods.com/ So sorry you've had to join our club and sending you hugs.
I am so sorry for your loss. We have not been able to get pregnant yet so I don't have the words to say.
My aunt had the same thing happen to her and she lost Charlie in 2006. They tried again and this time stitched her cervix and she was able to carry a child. As sad as it was, we cant imagine our lives without Nick.
Very sorry for your loss. Will be checking in on you. Many blessings.
I am so sorry for the loss of your little girl. I came over from LFCA. I lost my son in July to what they believed was IC, but turns out it was due to a blood clotting disorder so we are now thinking. Sending huge hugs your way.
By the way...I met my hubby online as well. :)
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